The love of my life....... Heartbroken.......

[smartguy77]

I am writing you this letter to express my love for you. I know we have been through some tough times and have never started off our relationship on the right foot. We have been apart now for 3 months and it has been the hardest times of my life. I have tried to anger myself to keep my fears from hurting me again and have built a wall of defense around my heart. Now I realized that my fears has destroyed my most important relationship with you and there is nothing more in this world that I want other than to start our relationship over again with the man I love. I know that you are just as scared as I am and you are afraid to take that step. I want for us to forget about the past that brought us the hurt and pain that we caused each other and start all over again. I want you to feel the passion, affection, love, and caring that I have to offer you and that I have never been able to show you. You are very special to me and I don't want to give that up. We need to give this relationship the chance that it never had. I know we can do it if we try. I have always said that you are my soul mate and the one I would always be with forever.

As time goes on and we're apart, I think of how things could have been. What we could have said or done to work things through. I would have been more understanding and not so judgmental, more loving and not so hurtful. I would have told you I loved and cherished you more often. That there can never or will ever be another person who I admire like you or who has reached the depths of my heart like you have. But how could I find the words or actions to explain to you just how much I love you. It would take a million lifetimes to even comprehend my feelings. I would have told you that you took my breath away the first time I saw you. I would have told you that you made be believe in love the first time you kissed me. I would have told you that every time I looked into your eyes I saw my destiny. I would have told you that my knees and entire body would shake every time you looked deep down into me with your eyes. Life just isn't life without you. I wish that there were a way to make time stop and go back to a time when we were happy. We both know that before we can go back to being one, we need to change things about ourselves in order to make this relationship last. I am sorry for the way I have mistreated you in the past. Many things have happened in the past, and many things have changed. It doesn't matter how much time has gone by. Time could never make my feelings for you weak or fade away. Please give us one more chance. Love, trust, understanding, affection, honesty, tolerance and loyalty are key factors for a successful relationship. We can be happy together if we work everything out, which I think we will. You are everything to me and I love you with all my heart. I hope I can learn to open up to you and let you know how I feel. I also hope that you will be able to recognize when something is wrong. But no matter what we do or where we go, I will love you. I will always love you, Geoff. You mean the world to me, and I hope that things will better, stronger, full of honest and authentic love.


My heart is here waiting for you and ready to put it all on the line. Will you do the same? I am taking this last chance and believe that this “marriage” will work. I need for you to do the same or we might as well call it quits. There is no other way to say it other than I love you, Geoff, with all of my heart and soul. I am not ready to give up, my partner.

[thienthantuyet]

You can writting a letter so a Vietnammese beacause we are a Vietnammese ang not talking a English

[Lan Phương]

có đoạn hiễu...có đoạn ko hiễu....
you can writting vietnamese.....please

[Antonio]

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can writing ... can +Ving ac ac ac

[..:: [P] ! [M] ::..]

uhm huh .... Relationship is the most important thing in the world.... I dun know what to say .... Just wish the best to u .....

[hell_angel2510]

Yah i don't know what to say to advjse u rjght now... Just give u and that person 1 chance... Being Far away from each other is a effective way to regconjze your feeljngs about each other.. Dont be sad... tjme will have the answer for both of u ... I know what do u feel right now.. I had tried it... What u can do right now is waiting and Crying... It's the best way ... because when that peron left u... That person had to thjnk clearly... And because of that.. u have to appriciate his idea about this... oneday... when he think back... he will understand and come back to u ... DOnt worry it's just a short time... BUt in this time... U have to try hard to overcome this ^^ ....FIghting ^^ If u want to talk with me... plz contact thjs ID ^^ I will give u my Yahoo we can talk clearly ^^

[smartguy77]

Hi Guys

THanks very much for your thoughts and advises. We live close by but it seems so far away. It's so hard to forget sómone that I was with for 8 Years...... we were about to get married in Canada.

:mad:

[smartguy77]

Every day I think about our love and think about you. I miss you so much. I know too many things have happened. I will forever love you and keep you in my heart. No matter what I will never forget you.

Every day that goes by without you I think it will be easy to forget, but it's not, it's actually harder every day to get over you and the kind of love you and I shared.

I know you still love me and I still love you, but things will never be like they used to be.
It pains me to know that you wake up with another beside you. It pains me to know that I could have let the best that that ever happen to me leave without a fight, and you know what hurts the most is the thought that you might not feel the same. The hardest part is not falling in love, but allowing you to fall out. I can't see my future any other way, but with you in it. It scares me to think that you can envision yours without me. It pains me to know that all good things have to come to an end, but I hope that ours can end in eternity.

Every night I fall asleep thinking of you, wondering how you are, where you are, if you're alright and if you still think of me and miss and love me like I do you. Every morning I wake, wishing for your embrace, to kiss your lips again and to be with you. I yearn for your love, everything about you, and I hope one day we'll be together again. I know we're meant to be, so I know our paths will cross once again and we'll end up back in each other's arms, where we belong!

I will always regret that day that I broke up with you. You meant so much to me. You're my world, my love, and my best friend. Each day, I wake up thinking about you lying next to me. I start to cry tears of sadness that I lost you. I know that you would never come back to me because you're afraid that I might hurt you again, but that's not true. I would never hurt you ever again if you give me another chance.

Geoff, you know I love you. It has been 7 months and I still want you back. You must see that. You must realize that I can't let you go. You were my first. I truly love you. I made so many mistakes. I screwed up with my insecurity. I see how I had nothing to worry about. I had you and my stupid thinking told me otherwise but my heart always knew you loved me and that you wouldn't leave me, but I had to mess everything up and my pathetic attempts to try and get you back. I tried to forget about you but it is so hard to stop loving a man like you. You're a smart, handsome man.. I believe in second chances no matter how much a person screws up and I screwed up big. I believe we are meant to be together forever and always. Please take me back. Mend my broken heart.

I think of all the memories we shared and I want to thank you. I wish you the best, like you use to tell me, "Reach for the highest star, follow your dreams and heart and you will get what you want; don't let the haters bring you down." Thank you very much! You left a hole in my heart when you walked out the door, but maybe now I can move on.

[smartguy77]

Every day I think about our love and think about you. I miss you so much. I know too many things have happened. I will forever love you and keep you in my heart. No matter what I will never forget you.

Every day that goes by without you I think it will be easy to forget, but it's not, it's actually harder every day to get over you and the kind of love you and I shared.

I know you still love me and I still love you, but things will never be like they used to be.
It pains me to know that you wake up with another beside you. It pains me to know that I could have let the best that that ever happen to me leave without a fight, and you know what hurts the most is the thought that you might not feel the same. The hardest part is not falling in love, but allowing you to fall out. I can't see my future any other way, but with you in it. It scares me to think that you can envision yours without me. It pains me to know that all good things have to come to an end, but I hope that ours can end in eternity.

Every night I fall asleep thinking of you, wondering how you are, where you are, if you're alright and if you still think of me and miss and love me like I do you. Every morning I wake, wishing for your embrace, to kiss your lips again and to be with you. I yearn for your love, everything about you, and I hope one day we'll be together again. I know we're meant to be, so I know our paths will cross once again and we'll end up back in each other's arms, where we belong!

I will always regret that day that I broke up with you. You meant so much to me. You're my world, my love, and my best friend. Each day, I wake up thinking about you lying next to me. I start to cry tears of sadness that I lost you. I know that you would never come back to me because you're afraid that I might hurt you again, but that's not true. I would never hurt you ever again if you give me another chance.

Geoff, you know I love you. It has been 7 months and I still want you back. You must see that. You must realize that I can't let you go. You were my first. I truly love you. I made so many mistakes. I screwed up with my insecurity. I see how I had nothing to worry about. I had you and my stupid thinking told me otherwise but my heart always knew you loved me and that you wouldn't leave me, but I had to mess everything up and my pathetic attempts to try and get you back. I tried to forget about you but it is so hard to stop loving a man like you. You're a smart, handsome man.. I believe in second chances no matter how much a person screws up and I screwed up big. I believe we are meant to be together forever and always. Please take me back. Mend my broken heart.

I think of all the memories we shared and I want to thank you. I wish you the best, like you use to tell me, "Reach for the highest star, follow your dreams and heart and you will get what you want; don't let the haters bring you down." Thank you very much! You left a hole in my heart when you walked out the door, but maybe now I can move on.[/QUOTE]

[hell_angel2510]

Yah... try hard... U can walk in ur path ... Dont be sad ... If he didn't aprriciate u ... let him know that's his mistake... Let give both of u a chance... U can Find another person Who is more suitable for u ^^ ... THe next person will Love and take care about u more than him...But Let keep it [ ur love for him ] inside ur heart in a deep and dark side in ur heart... Let c it as a good memories in ur life ^^ ... But any ways... I u can... DO EVERYTHING TO GET HIM BACK because that person who gets hurt is you ^^ ... TRy hard...Fighting ^^ ... Do u know the song " I Gotta Go on My own way " performed by Zac and vannessa hudgen ...IN HIGHSCHOOL MUSICAL .. That song is good for u right know

" I Gotta To move on be who I am... I'm just not belong here I hope u understand we might find the place in this world someday But at least for now I Gotta Go on My own way " It's a part of the lyric ...

[khongbiet]

well done guys
i so surprise to know that our forum has many people who can write fantastic English like this. This is how to share your sad story and the way to improve English. But there is one thing which made me upset that not many people took part in this topic.
to writer: i am really sorry about that. I know how much love you have giving him. your story'd be beutiful if something didn't happen in the past which i don't even know. if I was you, i would find hard to forgot my love since 8 years ago and just broke for a couple of months ago. However, being brave and wait but not crying which can hurt you more and more, wait for THE last chance.
PS : i like this sentence " Life just isn't life without you "

[smartguy77]

Thanks so much for your understanding, KhongBiet. I am so much in pain nơ, but I know that I tried the best the be the best boyfriend in the best condistions I knew how.

[smartguy77]

Dear Geoff,

You were and still are the great love of my life. I know that phrase sounds cliché to someone who's never been in love, but it's entirely fitting when it comes to you. I made so many mistakes when we were together, and as a result of them, we're not together anymore. I've spent months since kicking myself for the things that I did, and for the things that I didn't do. All I can do now is to say the words that: I always love you and I am letting you go.

I still love you and I desperately hope you're happy. It kills me that you can't be happy with me. Could you forget all the hurtful words that we've said? Could you forget all the pain and all the tears? Could you please forget all the foolishness of my fears? I hope you can forget and forgive me, because I've tried everything and I still can't seem to forget you. Please forgive me, for I'm afraid I can never forgive myself.

All I know is we may not be together now or maybe not ever again. But I want you to know that you are someone I will never ever forget. I loved you, and still love, and will always love you, no matter what. We've been through a lot. But that love is still there. I hope you find happiness.

I feel very lucky to have had the chance to experience the love we once had. It's something I will forever cherish. Please don't forget it. I know things aren't the best now, but at least I hope we can be friends in the future? That's where it all started. I just ask for one thing; be happy, and know that I am trying to be happy. I will always think of you.

Love always,
L

[princemkhang]

Maybe Geoff is a lucky man. with love in ur heart, he'll know how much U love him. U wrote so much than I could not remember all of details of ur sayings. I think that it's real emotion in ur mind. I wonder why life is not good forever as we hope. Hoping that U better with our writing as our sharing for U. Wishing U happy much much!

[hell_angel2510]

yah... that person is so wonderful when he has a bf like u ... Someone didn't realize that they had had the best thing in this world... when they lost it.. they know that's the biggest mistake ... The little pig ask his mom where is the happiness... The mom said that the happiness is his tail ... The little Pig said that why i can't get the happiness ....The mom answer when u go ahead in ur path ... The happiness will follow u ^^ ...Hope u can get more happiness as u can ^^

[khongbietdatten]

i don't know how you hurt because i have never been down like you. I just want to tell you sth right that you should stand up and move on. You'd better let everything be behind you and not think of them anymore. Try hard or you will hurt forever.

[smartguy77]

Hi All Members,

Thanks for your support, advises, and kindness. It means a lot to me. I am sorry that I can't write in Vietnamese well. I wish I could.

I have learned so much about myself the past few months and I have also learned a lot from my relationship with Geoff. There has come a time in my life when I finally get it. When in the midst of al my fears and insanity, I stop dead in my tracks and somewhere the voice inside my head cries out. I realize that it is time to stop hoping and waiting for something, or someone, to change or for happiness, safety and security to come. I come to terms with the fact that there aren't always fairytale endings and that any guarantee of happily ever after must begin with me. I have become to accept whatever life offers me even though it is hard to do that sometimes.


I begin to make my way through the reality of today rather than holding out for the promise of tomorrow. I realized that much of who I am and the way I navigate through life is a result of all the social conditioning I have received over the course of a lifetime. Slowly I begin to open up the new worlds and different points of view and I begin redefining who I am and what I really believe in. I begin to discard the doctrines I have outgrown, or should never have practiced to begin with…………..



I accept the fact that I am not perfect and that not everyone will love, appreciated or approve of who or what I am and that is perfectly OK. I learn about love and relationships, how to love and how much to give in love. I have learned that people – including me- don't always say what they mean or mean what they say, intentionally or unintentionally and that not everyone will always come through and interestingly enough, it is not always about me. So, I stop lashing out and pointing fingers or looking to place to blame for the things that were done to me or weren't done for me. And I have learned to keep my Ego in check( not all the time though) and to acknowledge and redirect the destructive emotions if spawns, anger, jealousy and resentment.



I have learned how to say I was wrong and to forgive people for their own human frailties. I have learned to build bridges instead of walls and about the healing power of love as it is expressed though a kind word, a warm smile or a friendly gesture. In addition, I have learned to look at people, especially people I love, as they really are and not as I would want them to be, and I am careful not to project my neediness or insecurities onto a relationship. I have also learned that people grow and change, so it is with love and relationships and that is not everyone can always love me the way I want them to love. I realized that the only love worth giving and receiving is the love that is given freely without condition or limitations. And I have learned that what it means to love. So I stop trying to control the situations or outcomes. I take a long look at myself in the mirror and I make a promise to give myself the same unconditional love and support I have given to others, especially to GEOFF. Then a sense of confidence is born of self-approval.



I have learned that life isn't always fair and I don't always get what I think I deserve so I stop personalizing every loss and disappointment. I stop looking for guarantees because I have realized that the only think I can really count on is the unexpected and that whatever happens, I'll learn to deal with it. I found out that the only thing I must truly fear is the great robber baron of all time FEAR itself. So I learn to step right into and through my fears because to give into fear is to give away the right to live life on my terms.

[smartguy77]

I am writing to ask you for a chance to explain myself to you. I am really alarmed and upset by what has happened between us lately. It is not at all what I intended. It was never my wish to cause a rupture in our relationship that would make it impossible for us to continue to talk to one another, or make it impossible to be in one another's lives; that was the last thing I wanted. This separation has been so turbulent that I'm afraid it has caused a profound misunderstanding between us, and every time I think about this misunderstanding it causes me pain that is so deep that I feel I can't stand it.

I think you must feel that I have been trying to separate from you permanently and that I have been trying to end our relationship. This is not true at all, and I want so much to make sure you understand that I never intended to break up with you and I am completely devastated by the idea that such a thing could happen. I have always loved and respected you, even in the most difficult times we have shared. Not only are you my boyfriend, but you also are the only family I have here. If you walk out of my life completely and permanently, it will feel that an important part of me is being taken away from me or is dying. I can't stand even the thought of that happening.

I know we have said things or I have said some things during the past months that have not been thought through and have been expressed badly and have hurt you and us. I'm really sorry for saying these things in the way I have said them. I have been so upset that I have not been able to contain my emotions, and I have said things I regret, and said things in ways that I am sorry.

I am not looking for an opportunity to berate you, or to blame you for anything that has happened, or to point out anything about your conduct toward me in the past. I want a chance to talk to you about something completely different: ME, and how I have acted in our relationship, and how differently I see things now that we are apart.

Since you moved back to San Francisco, I have been in an impossibly unsettled state. Everything has seemed uncertain to me. Most important, I have not known whether you would find work, whether you would be ale to stay in San Francisco, whether we could find a balance in our lives together that we could have a reasonable hope of sustaining. In the past 8 years, I don't even remember now how many times we have tried to be together; but it didn't get much result. We ended up being apart. This uncertainty has been both painful and paralyzing to me -- it has prevented me from settling into a relationship with you, and it led me to think that it would be best if you found your own place, settled into work, and resolved your immigration issues first. It seemed to me that this would allow us some breathing room within which we could come back together on firmer ground, with arrangements that gave us a better chance of living happily and without conflict.

Now, looking back on this, I realize that I have been hyper-sensitive to the uncertainties that have been inherent in your situation and in our future. I realize that I have had not as much patience and flexibility as I should have in dealing with the uncertainties before us, ones that probably were as difficult for you to handle as for me. I think I now know why this is, and I hope you can understand and appreciate what I am saying: when I was growing up, EVERYTHING was uncertain -- This has made me so jumpy that I was unable to overlook the uncertainty in your life, and this prevented me from being close to you while we were living together under difficult circumstances.

Again I am so sorry if I made your life more difficult than it needed to be, and more sorry if this was because of my own fears coming from my own background. I hope you will understand and forgive me for anything I might have done that was unfair or insensitive to your situation. But please, Geoff-- don't just leave my life and refuse to communicate with me. You are too important to me for that. It is much too painful for me to lose you like this.

I am not looking to try to solve all of our problems at once, or to change your life right away, or even necessarily to have long, difficult conversations about the past. But I hope so much that you will begin to open communication with me, and allow me to express my sorrow about what has happened, and to try to mend the situation so that we can stay in one another's lives, in whatever way makes sense.

With much love,

[saobien222]

oh man i'm so lazy. i've just look a little. i don't want to read many like that and i think you make me feel i lost into the moon
so confuse so mess this is your story
he he he he he i'm feel sr for you, to tell you the truth that you are the most crazy i 've seen before
ihihihhi gion? thoi dang tap. viet tieng anh hhe eheheeheh

[saobien222]

Big time for think.........big time to sing.........link me that day.......you say goodbye......i cry too much....it's such a time......I'm miss you so......cause my blood bleeding out into your heart.......but you don't treat...........oh my sick still here......allways on.......allways on
Best time for you have fun

[kevin_boy1989]

oi
trang nay lemonquestion wa'
co' gioi thi hen gap nhau giao tiep truc tiep di xem ai gioi hon
viet bag tieng anh thi lay sach ra viet theo cug dc
hehehe

[kevin_boy1989]

Can You Write Vietnamese ?
I Don't Know English
Excuse Me!
What Your Name?
I Can Make Your Friend?
You Can Add My Nick
My Nick Is Tonyhoang_76
I 'm Hcm City
And You?
Nice To Meet You !

[kevin_boy1989]

khoi dong chut thoy nha, dung noi e la lemonquestion !

[kevin_boy1989]

IF people like make friend , can add my nick !
nice to meet you!
ok thanks!

[kevin_boy1989]

please! make friend with me!
ok!

[duc_12c4]

chẳng hiểu cái gì. I don't understand